far too slow to outrun it now
askkolya, he/him, 22, gay, idiot, PTSD
My main gripe with long train rides is actually that its absolutely impossible to shave in the bathrooms (tiny, not actually any room to stand except in the disabled bathrooms which of course would not be an appropriate use of them) plus the jolting of the train would make me look like a bear mauling victim when i came out. So even tho i shaved right before i left i already have a 5 o clock shadow which is just, the worst level of sensory hell (((
if we could read minds I still don’t think we’d understand them.
like I’ve spoken to people who think in images, who have to translate each thought into words before they communicate. and I think entirely in words, laid out across the void inside my head. my father’s thinking is 3d, concepts structured in ways that are incredibly difficult to translate into words. and how would that look to me, if I could see into it? how do I perceive a thought that my mind cannot contain by the nature of their construction?
we all speak a private language to ourselves and we are always translating so we can speak to each other…don’t touch me I’m emotional
(via spinningblueberry)
#its the 'this is an empty country and i am thr king and i should not be allowed to touch anything' -ness of it all #pretty sure its that volcanic dead spot between oregon and california. driven thru it a few times #reminds me of home a little #so many random ppl trying to talk to me this morning its disgusting #luckily ch parle pas anglais desolé :) ❤ #photography
Not that i can afford one anyway but ive been obsessed with my moms espresso machine and trying to figure out how unwise exactly it would be to try and get one at some point. On the one hand its so easy to consume 16 shots of espresso in a day. And on the other hand, its so easy to consume 16 shots of espresso in a day
does anyone know what the first step of unlearning shame is. please say it’s substance abuse
(via moteldogs)
#i mean i guess i dont know if anyone ever actually needed to say it out loud to me per se #but ive heard them call for another set of hands after a while saying they got a 'guy whose making it difficult' #as if its on purpose or i want them to dig around in my veins for 20 minutes a pop









